Puddles Pity Party and ketchup

I am generally a pretty happy person. I enjoy life and am positive. But every so often a cloud will form and I end up down in the dumps. Last week I had a couple days like that…little things kept adding up, like my prescription being messed up, McDonalds not giving us ketchup, being sick with some stupid viral thing, and the bell choir really needing ringers which I was not delivering. All of these are manageable, but sometimes I end up in a mode where I look at everything with a glass half empty view. That’s depression.

There’s a line in a song called “Settle for Satin” by Alkaline Trio that says “It’s not so much a storm but just a cloud that lingers over me, it doesn’t scare so easily but when it wakes it goes the distance.” I think that is one of the best lines to describe depression. It’s hard to pull out of . I have been on antidepressants for more than 20 years and am aware of what to expect when I start to spiral down. I can do things to try to halt it early. What I’ve learned is that I have to recognize and address it. My strategy? When I start to feel sad, I listen to sad songs.

Doesn’t make sense? It does, because I have to acknowledge the cloud before I can put it to rest and move on. This is in no way a recommendation for you, but it works for me. Luckily, my awesome husband discovered Puddles Pity Party in the nick of time!

My husband has become a connoisseur of you tube videos. I think he started watching them while working on an old hit and miss engine that theoretically will make ice cream. He says we will have ice cream next summer. The neighbors are holding him to it. I think we’ll need a music box that plays one of the inane ice cream truck songs over and over and over. When the ice cream truck stops it reminds me of when our boat in the “Small World” Disney ride got stopped for about 10 minutes. It was delightful to hear that song repeated and see the happy little animatrons merrily cavorting, everybody singing together even if we are all strapped in a boat with no chance of escaping the infernal happiness. I think a song like that will encourage the children on the street to partake of the frozen delights. I’ll have to run that past him. He has put a couple videos of his engine on You Tube, a feat which impresses the heck out of me. I can’t even take a good picture of Chester.

Anyway, we watch mostly funny pets and kids, or the “First We Feast” hot sauce interviews. But sometimes he finds things that are a little… off. I’m not sure what prompted him to click on “America’s Got Talent” Puddles Pity Party. I looked up from reading the latest Andy Carpenter mystery and there was my new hero. Puddles Pity Party is a sad clown. He doesn’t talk. Simon was giving his snarky half-smirk, etc, when Puddles came onstage. Puddles sang a song, “Chandelier” by Sia and I was hooked.

I get Puddles. Apparently a lot of other people did too, and what rock have I been under that I didn’t know about him until now?? The show was in 2017. So in my downward slide, I became immersed in Puddles songs. I watched videos of “I Want to Know What Love Is”, “All by Myself” and gosh, about 5 more, even a Pink Floyd one until finally wallowing in “Everybody Hurts.” Guess what? It worked. Something about Puddles got through. So any of you who also are clawing your way back out of a valley or just enjoy something unique, check it out! Honestly, it’s not a parody, I think he really cares about people. If not, it’s a good act and I don’t mind.

Now let’s just talk about McDonald’s for a minute, shall we? Every Thursday I take the grandkid to Adrenaline Monkey so he can become an American Ninja Warrior or at least work off some energy. Littler grandkid goes too so that mommy and daddy can breathe for a hot minute. Littler grandkid and I have a tradition of going to McDonald’s while bigger grandkid is in Adrenaline Monkey running up warped walls and flying from ring to ring. Who do you think has the better deal..? Anyway, this must be the world’s worst McDonald’s. We have gone there for about 6 weeks and every single week we ask for extra ketchup. The grandkids want nothing but ketchup on their food. They order cheeseburgers with only ketchup, and large fries with ketchup, and chicken nuggets with “no sauce, only ketchup.” I picture the workers laughing when we say this because for 5 out of 6 weeks we get…NO KETCHUP. NOT A SINGLE FREAKIN PACKET!! We are lucky to get the apple slices in the happy meal, we are batting about 500 there. One week I was driving and bigger grandson started to gag and cough. I panicked, asking him if he was OK, and all he could choke out was “a pickle.” So apparently they do have pickles because they put one on his burger. But ketchup? Nada. Why do we still go there? As Tevye says, “Tradition!”

Tonight is another McDonald’s night. This time I am ready for them. I was putting flyers up for Decibells and the Convenient store was packed with Powerball players. They were busy so I wandered around, and seeing no bulletin board I started toward the door when I noticed bins with packets of ketchup, mustard, and mayo. God help my soul, but I grabbed a handful of the ketchups and ran for the door. Chester and I floored the Subaru and I am now ready to shake a handful of the packets at the McDonald’s window and laugh maniacally. I can’t wait.

I didn’t include much about Chester today, but it has been absolutely beautiful here. It could stay like this forever and I’d be OK. We have noticed that there is a plethora of acorns and giant leaves this year.

The acorns are pretty aggressive too, you could be seriously injured by some of the big ones! Here are some of our highlights! Take care and hang in there!

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A classic overthinker trying to age gracefully while living with a big, too smart for his own good shelter pup who must have his daily walk.

14 thoughts on “Puddles Pity Party and ketchup”

  1. I think depression is hereditary. I’ve been on antidepressants for 20 years also! I think it is a common symptom of people who are caregivers.
    Your pictures are beautiful!! I need to live near a lake!!💕

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      1. Today is my Mom’s birthday.💗
        I know my sis and little bro have the same problem. Glad you are so aware of yourself and have learned what to do to help yourself!!
        I am so land -locked in IND. Pics take me back to Michigan City- idyllic life!!
        Looking forward to eventually moving to Colorado- lots of huge reservoirs and lake!!

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  2. Oh just cheer up. Look on the sunny side.(Don’t you just hate it when people say that to you when you’re feeling down?) Anyhoo, I hate to be the one to make this suggestion but I think it is excessive exposure to Puddles the Clown that is deleterious to your health. On the other hand, it might be a lingering PTSD from 10 minutes of listening to “It’s a Small, Small World.” Worse than McDonalds although that’s no shining beacon of nutrition either. Well, far be it for me to criticize your choices (except Puddles which is a bad choice by any measure) and I did like those song lyrics although I liked them more when I first thought the name of the group was “Settle for Satan.” I mean, the irony would have been delicious. Well, I hope things get better for you and you find a good crop of prospective bell ringers.

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  3. Hi Martha, Great post. And I congratulate you for being honest and hitting it (depression) square on the head. Jane and I both have been on medication for some years too. I think it is largely hereditary. Anyway, I enjoyed reading your post. All the best, Sara

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  4. I know that I am like you, overall a happy person. I don’t get depressed as much as I can get anxious. I’m not a clown person so I don’t know how I feel about Puddles Pity Party. I’m a little creeped out by him.

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  5. Sorry you’re feeling down. You’re very brave to express your feelings and organize a new venture single-handedly. I’ve seen your creativity and inspirational leadership in action before. Your resilience, hard work, and good intentions will win the day.
    Where were your pictures taken? Has anyone ever told you that you should be a hand model? Seriously, your slender, sensitive hand outshines those big old leaves. . .

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  6. Depression is what I all our family curse – and the thing that “we don’t discuss that.” I’ll have to blog about that attitude in my family some time. Anyway, I’m hoping you’re feeling better and honestly, I would have totally decimated the ketchup and mayo bins. Because that’s just how I am. 🙂

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  7. Martha, how have I not found your blog before? I really enjoyed reading about you grandkids. I also resonated with the talk about depression. I’ve fought depression for as long as I can remember. About 20 years ago, when I had a hysterectomy and went into early menopause, the depression took a major downward spiral and I was diagnosed with hormone-induced BiPolar type 2. I take not one, but three anti-depressants. They work! It’s the right combination for me, anyway. I do still get depressed at times, but not to the extremes that I used to. Anyway, it seems we don’t live very far from each other – I’m in Eastlake. We should do coffee sometime. No, really! I mean it!!! Have a Happy Thanksgiving!


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